searching for silver lining - its dark :(

[deep autumn]

hy all,

This is female 9 July 1988 (4:30 - 5:30 PM)  GMT + 5


I started my career path in 2010. 2016 gave me brutal financial setbacks, lost money money and faced alot of stress. tried getting back somehow but 2020 was yet another blast. infact in 2020, i couldn't focus on work, all was like family related unplanned circumstances. I am still trying but its not looking any better and i am stressed out is it going to get any better?? i am a creative mind but not getting enough direction, feel blocked.
what should my work be like? is it going to get any better??


I have tried relocating to some other country, but out of nowhere, something comes up and the process go stuck. i was given an option to marry someone abroad but that side is yet another mess. will i ever be able to relocate? what country should i give a try for easy migration? and what will be good time?

the marriage area i said is yet another mess, there are proposals but nothing is working out, it sometimes is my owns family mismanagement/lack of interest. sometimes the other part came up with lame excuses out of nowhere. what my spouse section says about it? when will i be able to get married and what it ll be like??

i know i asked alot but what else a stressed out, suffocated and and blacked out person would do anyway? if not ask questions to get out of it

[johnyqi]

The wealth component (earth) is definitely excessive, you are prone to having debts. I know it might be hard for you, but you have to learn how to manage your finances better and take less risk.

The relationship issues are somehow related to this, it's mostly caused by excessive Earth and the clash between Ox and Goat, which disturbs your spouse palace.

You are now in a strong wood period, which is somewhat more useful, the wood should loosen up the earth, but it will involve a lot of hard work.

Finding a good match could be crucial for you, somebody with a lot of water element.

[deep autumn]

thanks alot johnyqi

what different forms of debt it could be? coz i never find myself converging to take financial loans. i have no financial debts but right now, i am in a condition to spend my savings very carefully.

is there anything i can do for this ox goat clash? coz it made it to something that i have no closeness to any of the family member. in this particular time especially, its cringy and i feel suffocated in my own home. all the ways i try to get out of it has the same very ending - to get married. and that itself is messed up area.

this strong wood period is not seeming to help me for now i want an escape.. how can i get an escape ?

[johnyqi]

Home is earth for you, affecting you negatively, therefore the suffocation feeling. I think you should move away, travel more. That will also reduce the clash impact.

[deep autumn]

i tried to travel and relocate. but there are continuous blockages. in 2019 for example, i got stuck due to border closure. recently, its finance.

[johnyqi]

you have to keep trying. I dont think that staying at home will work for you, ever.

[leonard28]

Hi deep autumn,

4:30 - 5:30pm covers two different Hour pillars. Do you have the exact timing? Also provide your birth city so I can check for true solar time.

Migration is unlikely in the current phase, but quite possible in the upcoming period 2029-38. But I agree, you need to move away from your birth family due to inherent clash between you and them. If you can't migrate elsewhere, at least stay some place else and minimize contact with them.

Countries with easy migration aren't worthwhile, while great places have strict immigration laws.

Seeing the abundance of Wealth elements in your chart, I reckon you desire doing business and/or speculate financially. However, your Output element is quite weak, making it hard for you to find the right ways to make money in this manner. The years 2009-18 are not favorable for you too. Without Direct Resource to protect you from harm, you can get into pretty big trouble financially.

Did you meet someone in 2020 or 2021? It looks like you will marry late in life.

[deep autumn]

eonard28, thanks for the response

4:30 - 5:30pm covers two different Hour pillars. Do you have the exact timing? Also provide your birth city so I can check for true solar time.

well my mother gave me this info about my time of birth do its between 430 and 530 Pm, the location is Rawalpindi Pakistan

Seeing the abundance of Wealth elements in your chart, I reckon you desire doing business and/or speculate financially. However, your Output element is quite weak, making it hard for you to find the right ways to make money in this manner. The years 2009-18 are not favorable for you too. Without Direct Resource to protect you from harm, you can get into pretty big trouble financially.

I quit the Jobs long ago, and focusing on my own thing, business/self employment but for not its not working out for me.
What can i do about weak output elements?
i dont remember much bad in 2009 till 2015,, 2016 onwards and especially 2020 till now is DARK

Did you meet someone in 2020 or 2021? It looks like you will marry late in life.

meeting people is getting regular now, as everyone is pressuring me to get married. i did found a couple of them compatible but it ended up real bad. I am already 34 how more late it is? what will be the good time for it? and what is the marriage be like?
can this marriage thing fix something?

[leonard28]

Without the exact birth time, it won't be possible to give an accurate reading.

Your Output elements are Fire, which you will encounter from 2025 to 2027. In the meantime, the financial situation will be more or less the same as currently.

Meeting a suitable partner is more likely in 2030. Until then, I don't see much chance of marriage taking place.

[deep autumn]

and this is way more depressing i asked this to find some solution some remedy some hopes..

[johnyqi]

and this is way more depressing i asked this to find some solution some remedy some hopes..

Facing your issues is already 50% of the solution. Don't be disheartened; getting awareness is crucial for moving forward.

[deep autumn]

@johnyqi
i literally cried reading the last message for like a whole day. I am someone who always has managed to strengthen myself no matter how hard the situation is. but now it seems like never ending. I have been through roughhh things since long and still asked to wait for 2030sss is much depressing. i am losing myself already.
Just wanted some escape.

[johnyqi]

There is no point in waiting for better luck; every day you can do something to improve yourself. Just focus on things that you have control of; the rest will come.

[leonard28]

@johnyqi
i literally cried reading the last message for like a whole day. I am someone who always has managed to strengthen myself no matter how hard the situation is. but now it seems like never ending. I have been through roughhh things since long and still asked to wait for 2030sss is much depressing. i am losing myself already.
Just wanted some escape.

Why such despair? Your phases are quite alright, better than many people's that I've seen.

Have you shortlisted any countries and researched their migration criteria? Do you fulfill their requirements?

What sort of business are you doing? Why is it not working? Are you selling anything better than others that the customers will return? Do you have any skills that can give your business a competitive edge?

How are you meeting potential partners, by family arrangement or on your own?

[deep autumn]

What sort of business are you doing? Why is it not working? Are you selling anything better than others that the customers will return? Do you have any skills that can give your business a competitive edge?

I mentioned 2020 was major shift. i had my employees and was working with international clients in IT domain. throughout 2020, my family remained so messed up that i couldn't work, lost everything to zero. In 2021, family relocated to new place, took quite alot of time, i tried getting back and in try to even try from scratch i tried to deal basic projects, narrowed down my path to focus, (Digital Design is my personal skill and i am blessed with extremely creative mind) but the issues are mainly:
- not getting my payments, or getting very small chunk
- not winning the deals, can't get myself highlighted
- tried for jobs too, din't get answer, and also this new location is quite far from the twin city and i have to depend on someone for the travel or have to spend more than the earned salary over it.
- savings are getting short with time too

Have you shortlisted any countries and researched their migration criteria? Do you fulfill their requirements?

tried AUS back in 2019, even invested money over some verification processes, ended up with border closure and covid
2021 - tried CAD immigration, invested money here as well, but the educational qualification process got complicated & my consultant said that this never happened, u should try again (which means spending money again) & i quit.
in the end of 2021, tried for UK study option, got letters in hand but yet again my mother created a scene plus my financial end was weak personally, got no support from anyone.

How are you meeting potential partners, by family arrangement or on your own?

i have zero or say negative attachment to mother, father now gave up. so rn i am trying for myself. problem is that the good ones don't last long or its something like unimagined story (one died, one's father died so the process got delayed and then vanished, one came up with family not agreeing, one had some secret marriage so all extreme kind of drama on this end)


Hope i answered all in detail.